Sunday, September 22, 2019

Mystic hills, the blue Pacific, and goldenness

"It seemed like a matter of minutes when we began rolling in the foothills before Oakland and suddenly reached a height and saw stretched out of us the fabulous white city of San Francisco on her eleven mystic hills with the blue Pacific and its advancing wall of potato-patch fog beyond, and smoke and goldenness in the late afternoon of time." —Jack KerouacOn the Road

After spending nearly three days in Portland for work, I lugged my monstrously huge suitcase to San Francisco. Well, United Airlines lugged it. But it was hard to get off the baggage carousel. It held a pair of dress shoes, two pairs of casual shoes, and a pair of biking shoes and pedals. It had my charger for my laptop, and also for my Garmin, a Go Pro, and a bike light. It held padded shorts and a decidedly unpadded bike seat. A baseball cap and a bike helmet. 

Yesterday was the big day I've been talking about for many months: the BikeMS Waves to Wine Ride. I had to get up at 5 to be at the Brisbane Marina and ready to roll at 7.

I wasn't supposed to get a free jersey for
the ride, but they gave me one.


San Francisco in the distance, from
the Brisbane Marina.
I took the blue route. Rest stops #1&2 were
ridiculously close to so we hit 3 rest stops
early on. Preventative hydration was
a good thing.

We rode west from the San Francisco Bay into the south side of San Francisco (only slight hills) and to the ocean. Thankfully, it was early and traffic was light. We rode up the big hill by the Cliff House to the Presidio (rest stop #1), with the ocean on our left and Golden Gate Park on our right. We wove around and got on a bike path that took us up to the bridge. 


The shadow with my visor makes my helmet
tilt look more jaunty than normal.
There's a bike path on the west side of the bridge that takes you over to Marin County. We rode through some pretty little towns in a little inlet area and arrived in Fairfax at rest stop #2 - the parking lot of a bike shop. From there, we rode further into Marin County and started climbing into the golden foothills.

I sought out quality companionship at the rest stops.

After rest stop #3, we did more gradual climbing. I was riding my niece's mountain bike, so despite going way slower on the flat and downhill parts, hills were generally easier for me than the other riders, it seemed. I often passed people on the climbs, and they passed me on the descents. However, the descent into the redwood forest by Muir Woods was blessedly light on bike and car traffic, and I was able to enjoy the sights and smells of the forest. We then came out of the woods and started riding up hot and exposed yellow and brown hills toward Point Reyes, where my Grandpa M. worked when he was in the Coast Guard in WWII.

Lunch at the halfway point, on the eastern side
of Point Reyes.

My feet needed a break from my shoes.
The wrap was actually good.
At lunch, I was thinking two things: 1. I could ride my niece's bike every day; it was so comfortable. 2. Maybe I was too freaked out and overtrained on hills this summer.

My trusty steed, with my bike seat and pedals on it.

At least the wide tires were slick, rather than knobby.

Both thoughts were premature. The hills began in earnest, especially where the 100-mile route split off from the 86-mile route. There were way fewer people and they appeared to be 100% of the dude variety. It was hot, it was sunny, it was hilly, and there was a headwind. But I kept slowly climbing, passing people along the way to rest stop #4.

There was live music at this tiny stop. Note the
pickle jars. 
People were dragging at this point due to the sun, heat, wind, and hills. They sat in the shade, eating pickles - - glorious pickles. I grabbed a second handful of dill slices when I heard this exchange: "I hate this next part." "Is it that bad? How long is it?" "I'm not sure, I think 4 miles." I also grabbed a mini Clif Bar and stuck it in my jersey.

And so I began, slowly, into the wind, with a lightweight bike with really big slow tires and a generous serving of chamois cream on my sitz bones, which had been making their presence known. At the bottom of "The Marshall Wall," people (including a group of mysterious women wearing Google jerseys) were stopped in a tiny patch of shade to drink some water and gird their loins. I took a photo of of the hill from the bottom, but it does not in any way capture what I saw before me. I drank my water, shoved the Clif Bar in my mouth, and headed up. 

I don't think it was 4 miles, but it was long and it was steep and kept on going. I've done other long steep hills like this in the Bay Area, but never after having already ridden 72 miles and not quite so steep at the base. I did a hill like this in Wisconsin in August, but it was a fraction of the length of this hill. I plugged along in the easiest gear on the bike, going about 4 mph. I think I dropped down to 3.7 at one point. I'm not sure. It was hot and I tried not to look. I just thought about rotating my feet and keeping my shoulders loose.

The top of The Marshall Wall (i.e. the road to Marshall).
I made it and then I rode my bike downhill for a very, very long time. We had some other climbs and descents and rejoined the 86-milers at rest stop #5.

The bike mechanic told me we were near
Tomales Bay.
The rest stop was on a cliff with a cool wind coming off the water. (The bike mechanic was wearing a sweatshirt.) It was shady. Everyone lingered. From here on out, we had some hills into rest stop #6, but also had a stretch with a tail wind. When we weren't going uphill, I was going at a good pace. Rest stop #6 was pretty deserted because it was somewhat exposed and people just wanted to finish. I ate some good cookies, though, as I adjusted my socks. 

I was scared we'd have to climb into Petaluma, but it was mostly just rollers. I rolled in, stuck my bike the corral, found my checked bag, and headed for the shower truck. I ate dinner, had a beer, and killed time until I could catch the shuttle back to Brisbane and then drive back to my sister's house.

Success!

Sadly, I had no buddy for this finish
line sign and forgot my normal
solution of sticking my helmet
in the other head hole.

I dawdled a bit when I got back to my sister's - unpacking my stinky clothes, etc. But when I went to bed, I crashed and slept solidly.

This morning we went for excellent massages, and then met Molly's friend Kate for a stroll around Filoli Gardens and the estate. It was a nice relaxing way to tie up the weekend.


The massage place had rocks on a hot griddle
in my massage room.
 
Kate and I showing off our similar haircuts.

That's one big fireplace, yo.

So, to recap: the ride was a challenge, as I suspected it might be. But I am glad I did it.

It was my first century ride of the season and my riding has been sporadic in recent weeks. I thought of my dad a lot during the ride. First, I thought of him because he always kept tabs on my rides and would have texted or emailed me to wish me luck and good weather. So, I got a little teary at the beginning of the ride. Then, when I was riding through a particularly pretty part by Muir Woods, I got a little teary (okay, I made an audible sob noise), because he would have liked my report-out. When I was riding in the hard parts between miles 65-80, I thought of when I did a tough ride many years ago and he sent me flowers with a note about how I refuse to wilt in tough conditions. That made me determined to keep on plugging along. I started thinking about the things that I should tell Beth, my stepmom, about the ride and the things she might like to know. They are slightly different things, but that is okay.

I am so grateful for all of the support I've received from people the past few weeks, but really it is just an extension of the support that I've been receiving from people for many years. Thanks all, who keep me pedaling forward - - literally and figuratively, and thank you for helping me raise $7,840 for the MS Society this year. I met people on the CA ride who, just like people from MN, are affected by this disease and are benefiting from all we're doing.




Tuesday, September 10, 2019

Deep Thoughts While Running (or, why I should stick to biking)

Last year, we saw Cloud Cult play with the Minnesota Orchestra and it was fantastic. It was so good that, in early August, we bought tickets for the similar-ish March 2020 show, and I bought the violinist coffee and a pastry at my neighborhood coffee shop because she goes there, too.

I went "running" last Friday night and again tonight because the weather was nice but I didn't have time for a bike ride. I'm not really a runner. My dad was my cross country coach for two years, until I decided I'd rather date the runners than actually run. When I was in my early 30s, my dad and I did a 5k and as I got tired near the end, he ran backwards for a while to talk to me and encourage me to catch up.

Anyhow, as I was running, I was thinking about the phrase in this Cloud Cult song that I was listening to: "But you can't know beauty if you don't know pain."



Although I prefer this song for its other lyrics ("You got a breathe a little deeper, you gotta suck it, suck it in, there's your meditation" and "Some days you give thanks, some days you give the finger"), I've thought about this phrase about beauty and pain on and off over the past couple of years. There's a similar phrase in a Modest Mouse song: "If life's not beautiful without the pain, well, I'd just rather never ever even see beauty again." I always thought that was a pretty extreme sentiment, but it is a pretty song.



In his recent book, Jeff Tweedy talks about the suffering artist idea and says that people don't need to suffer to create music or art, that it is kind of a load of bull that we'd expect artists to have to go through more than other people to be able to do their jobs.

Because I love all things Tweedy (spoiler alert), I had sort of adopted and adapted this view and still believe that you can be happy and find beauty in things without suffering as a contrast.

But now, I have to throw into the mix two own writings of my dad's - - a letter to his siblings when his mother died and a poem we just found of his entitled, "September." In both, he talks about trees needing to be scarred to flourish as a metaphor for human suffering and happiness. I still don't know that I buy it, but it gave me some things to think about when I trotted in a most unflattering way around the lake today.

Minnehaha Creek headed into Lake Hiawatha

Lake Hiawatha where the Creek pours out toward
the Mississippi River. If you zoom in you can
see the Mpls skyline in the distance.

So, yes, deep thoughts by Maggie who most definitely is not a runner and is trying to squeeze in any sort of cardio even though she really needs more butt-on-seat time before the California ride. 

(Oh, and by the way, if anyone is cyberstalking me and thinks my house is going to be vacant when I go to California, it isn't. And I have nothing to take anyhow. But the house will still be occupied.)

Saturday, September 7, 2019

The clock is ticking

Well, two weeks from now, I'll be on the shuttle bus, heading back to my sister's house, after my big California ride.

Two weeks ago, the day before my life suddenly changed, my friend Matt and I sought out some hills in the Mankato area.

Check out the population size

Minneopa State Park


Today, I went for a nice hilly ride down by Northfield. The sun rising over the Minnesota River Valley this morning, as I drove down 77, was remarkable.

No need for necks in the old west.

A nice man who apparently lives by me (he figured it out due to my water bottle from the local bike shop) wanted to ride together for a while. I was polite, but then said I needed to ride at my own pace. I decided that, right now, I can't do small talk and either need to be alone or need to be with old friends. I will definitely do this ride again, and perhaps I will be more sociable.

 I haven't hardly ridden in two weeks and I am feeling it. California should be interesting!

Thursday, September 5, 2019

My love of assorted foolhardy individuals

So, my dad wasn't entirely foolhardy, but he had a foolhardy streak (e.g., "Maggie, let's drop your young brothers off on shore as you and I take the canoe down the rapids," "I thought you liked being flipped out of your wagon"). I believe that any similar traits I have ("Sure, we can bike through that river") likely are attributable to him.

When I emailed my BikeMS donors before my week-long bike ride in July, he responded. He always responded to each of my emails, either with something funny or sentimental.



Because I live 5 hours from where he lived, this will be the most noticeable day-to-day difference in my life moving forward - not getting frequent and random emails and texts, not having him throw me on speaker phone as he sits in his chair - telling me to not work too hard, to not get hit on my bike, and filling me in on what my siblings are up to.

He mentioned my love of Iceland because we went there, together. I was extremely lucky to be able to travel with my husband and my parents to Peru in 2006; Egypt in 2009; Iceland, Amsterdam, and Belgium in 2016, and the North Shore of Minnesota in 2017. The four of us shared a cabin at our family reunion in Kentucky in 2018, and joined my cousin and her husband for a bourbon distillery tour in Kentucky this past May.
Peru



Egypt, obviously
The Temple of Horus at Edfu, I think

Egypt enthusiasm


You can't see our faces, but who cares?

Alexandria, Egypt
Waterfall in Iceland
Iceland hot springs
Our first beer in Amsterdam -
the perfect choice
Belgian waffles in Bruges/Brugge

My co-conspirator


Ghent, Belgium

The North Shore
I have many memories (and some photos, too) of my dad from before I was an adult, too - - ranging from him falling asleep in my bunk bed while rubbing my back, teaching me how to ride a bike, serving as my cross-country coach and my detention proctor, sharing his true opinions about some of my hairstyles, and driving me to Minnesota when I transferred there for college and stopping so that I could use payphones along the way to try to find a hotel for us to stay at while he bought me Benadryl for my stress-induced hives.

I will need to dig for the photo of the biking and camping trip the two of us went on together about 15 years ago - the only time we did that. He packed a bag of M&Ms as our trail mix and, in true Mahoney fashion, challenged me to a bike race. I won.

A common theme at his memorial service was his love of nature and how he passed that along to us. As I've gotten overwhelmed these past 10 days and find myself taking deep yoga breaths, I have been seeking out nature to comfort me. I am grateful that he taught us that skill.

My parents' yard; sun brings hope

My parents' yard; fog brings peace
My family went for a hike at
the state park we used to always go to
with my dad; the dude in this
photo hates having his picture taken.
I couldn't bear to crop the photo, though.


My bike ride, just after returning to MN
after spending a mourningful week in WI.
The Mississippi River, just after the
confluence with the Minnesota River.

My dad's favorite photo of himself.

I think I like this one better. I took it in Jan 2019.
My dad planted each of those trees and we
would walk the paths between them each
time I visited. He helped me dig through the
snow to find my dog's missing boot.


From a couple of Christmases ago. My parents
gave me the neck buff that I was wearing
as a hat while mysteriously still in
my snowpants late at night.

And when I am feeling like junk, yet have to work and can't step outside, I think I will just put on his flannel shirt, like I did today.